Friday, March 9, 2012
Distrust
When I was younger my mother and I shared an extremely close bond. She and I spent a lot of time together. I always felt comfortable with sharing my thoughts and feelings with her. She was like one of my best friends and I had all the trust in the world for her. As I was entering into high school she and my father split up. My siblings and I were in disbelief, none of us had seen that coming. Even after we moved out of our family's home I remained hopeful that they would reconcile. But all those hopes and prayers ended when my mom became more involved in her new life. She and I became distant which made me incredibly sad. Since, I have harbored resentment toward my mother. I had completely lost all trust in her. How could her high priority for her children decline? Still to this day I haven't been able to regain my trust in her, which has caused our relationship to remain stagnant. She makes efforts to reconnect with me, but I haven't been able to forgive and trust her again.
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I can relate to you because I also have a untrustworthy relationship with my dad. Although our situations and circumstance are different, I still think we can relate. It is hard to lose trust in a parent because you feel like they are supposed to be always there for you and never disappoint you. Gaining that trust back is really hard and as much as both sides try, it most likely will never happen. I wish you well in your relationship with your mother. It is hard for you and her but maybe one day things will reconcile and get better.
ReplyDeleteWow, that is really unfortunate. I understand where you are coming from but would like to give you some encouraging words. Family is family, they will always be there for you (in most cases)when you need them the most. I can totally see where you are coming from and see why it is hard to trust your mother again. Thankfully for the both of us this book has taught us a lot in how to handle conflict. Your mom may have no idea why your relationship hasn't been as close and maybe if you initiated a conversation she may have a reason why she acted the way she did! (I am totally playing devils advocate). Anyhow, this may be totally none of my business but it breaks my heart to see a mother/daughter relationship fade away. I hope things get better for you both!
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